I thought I was doing OK. I thought I was checking off the stages of the grieving process with relative success. Then a radiology bill comes in from August. I see my dadās name and I run my fingers over it. āRobert Countsā. Suddenly Iām not OK, and the tears wonāt stop. I have missed him so much this week. Iāve been able to fill the days with being busy, but sometimes the quiet moments come with the loudest memories. Seeing his name brought up images of frailty and suffering. But for the millionth time in my life, I feel His presence. I feel the Lord pull me in tight and surround me with His supernatural reassurance. I can almost hear Jesus, āDonāt you know? Donāt you know my sweet child that the grave is empty? I need you to trust me.ā The sad images will fade in time, and I know sweeter ones will replace them. For now I have FAITH and TRUST that Dadās having a pretty spectacular time in his renewed body. What joy that must be. ā¤ļø #missyoudaddy #grief #jesus #heaven #healing
Steve asked me when we were dating, āI have this amazing little boy. He has a huge heart and heās full of love. He needs us. Can you accept him and love him?ā I made a promise to Steve and a promise before the Lord with an intentional āYesā! Eighteen years later, I think life has shown me over and over that I needed Keegan in my life as much as he needed us. I could fill up your days with endless stories of this young manās kindness, compassion, and grace. Heās quick to forgive, slow to judgment, loving in word and deed, and humble in spirit. Heās been through a lot. Heās overcome a lot. Heās also about to do A LOT of great things. This is his decade to thrive. We are honored to celebrate year 21 with him today. āTrust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.ļæ¼ā Proverbs 3:5-6 #21stbirthday
